Counting down......

10 minutes left and WELCOME 2012!

I might not be given the chance to spend it with my family but I'm still happy that I was able to until 8pm today. That was enough for me. The smiles that I saw from them was all worthwhile.


Hoping for a great new year!

What's for the NEW year?

Hmmm.... Been thinking of resolutions already but never really wanted to have list. I never ever follow them anyways.... But for sure, I will make 2012 the best year.

I did a search for my birth year and here it goes:

The Dragon is a creature of myth and legend. A symbol of good fortune and sign of intense power, the Oriental Dragon is regarded as a divine beast - the reverse of the malicious monster that Westerners felt necessary to find and slay. In Eastern philosophy, the Dragon is said to be a deliverer of good fortune and a master of authority. Therefore, those people born in Dragon years are to be honored and respected.----- You should respect me guys.... lol

DRAGON FACTS:

People born in the Year of the Dragon share certain characteristics. The Dragon sign is an abbreviated way of characterizing that individual's personality. Following are features associated with the sign of the Dragon. 

CHARACTERISTICS

• Innovative
• Enterprising
• Flexible
• Self-assured
• Brave
• Passionate
• Conceited
• Tactless
• Scrutinizing
• Unanticipated
• Quick-tempered 

Soooooo True.....

THE EARTH DRAGON  1988

Earth Dragons make great managers because they are practical, levelheaded and demonstrate a knack for organizing. They still have the need to dictate and be admired, but they are affable, congenial and supportive. Compared to other Dragons, Earth Dragons are less likely to breathe fire at the least irritation. They will work diligently to complete their life goals. The Earth element adds a greater portion of self-control to the Dragon's personality and usually the Earth Dragon is deserving of the respect he or she desires. These Dragons take their life and romantic responsibilities quite seriously.

I don't think so... I'm still an agent.... But planning to level up this year because it's my year (Evil Laugh)....

HEALTH

Dragons take thrilling risks and burn the candle at both ends so they are fortunate to be blessed with good health. Among the most hearty of the Animal signs, they can suffer bad health as a result of stress. Symptoms of their personalities often stem from emotional outbursts and can range from tension headaches to depression to hypertension. Dragons can remedy these problems by maintaining their cool, implementing a routine in their daily lives, and utilizing exercises such as yoga or tai kwon do that soothe the mind and spirit as well as tone the body.

Hahahaha I have a very big body..... Not fat but big...

http://www.herongyang.com/chinese/archive/999998205_Chinese_Horoscopes_The_Dragon.html

Just here for now.... Will search for this later :P

Homework of my Niece (Synonyms, Antonyms and Homonyms)

SYNONYMS

1. Eager - Earnest

2. Spontaneous - Impromptu

3. Close - Shut

4. Blowup - Inflate

5. Shallow - Superficial

6. Drunk - Loaded

7. Feasting - Banquet

8. Ferocious - Furious

9. Coarse - Common

10. Coach - Train

11. Shade - Darken

12. Shaky - Unstable

13. Tears - Snap

14. Swarm - Stream

15. Tedious - Boring

ANTONYMS

1. Weak - Strong

2. Low - High

3. Thick - Thin

4. Straight - Crooked

5. Agree - Disagree

6. Nice - Mean

7. Old - Young

8. Near - Far

9. Tall - Short

10. Day - Night

11. Sleep - Awake

12. Sense - Nonsense

13. Decent - Indecent

14. Human - Inhuman

15. Male - Female

HOMONYMS

1. Made - Maid

2. Ate - Eight

3. Meat - Meet

4. Bear - Bare

5. Read - Reed

6. Light - Lite

7. Advise - Advice

8. Ascent - Assent

9. Ail - Ale

10. Allay - Alley

11. Bail - Bale

12. Nit - Neat

13. Teem - Team

Scrambled thoughts

Darn, I promised I will post something but I never had the time. I am now very busy watching Korean dramas that I always forget posting something here. For the past few weeks many things happened. 

I started to join the the 'Christian Life Program' of Singles for Christ. But still doing those bad habits. For two weeks straight, I have been drinking, smoking and trying to kill myself by not having enough sleep when going to work. 

Then my body collapsed. I was hospitalized last week because my kidney was swollen and I had an infection. I thought I will die that time. Luckily, I am still here writing this blog. 

Now, I am obliged to go on a diet and lose weight. I really planned it before the hospitalization happened, but because of some reasons, I wasn't able to do it.

These days, I am trying to pull my self together and think of what is happening in my life. The problems I am ignoring and the things that will happen because of my issues at present.
My dad and mom wanted to separate, my brothers and sisters still think that they don't have their own families. Mom always think that dad is having an affair with somebody else even though she doesn't have the proof. Dad always scold mom like it was his maid. 

I hate this life sometimes. Whenever I have problems it always comes like it wanted to kill me.

Sometimes, I wanted it all to stop. That will never happen though... :(

Partner

When I hear that word, I always think about a bestfriend, Love one or colleague. These past few days, I have been watching different Korean Drama. So melodramatic of me but I truly admire and congratulate the writers in Korea. I am not saying that Filipinos are off. I do have the right to appreciate things right? Also, I always think about the difference and quality of drama in the Philippines and Korea and I admire both. 

Going back to the main point. I watched Partner for two days and a half and it really did fed me everything. Although some of it are very crucial and unbelievable, I do believe that there are people out there who would rather choose injustice than to offer their lives. Also, I know that many are still pure at heart and believe in what we call JUSTICE. 

The word ‘Partner’ takes a different meaning when it is used in law firm. Partners are the people who survived from the power struggle. They are executives who are on the top of the law firm pyramid. Enterprises are law firm’s partners. Law firms fight each other to become a partner of business. They struggle to be close to power and to become a slave of money. There are some lawyers who want be the partners of commoners as well. They are willing to be the spokesperson for the underprivileged. It is a story about partner; the one who is going to stay by your side and fight together in front of law. 

Cast

Kim Hyun Joo as Kang Eun Ho
Lee Dong Wook as Lee Tae Jo
Choi Chul Ho as Lee Young Woo (Tae Jo’s older brother)
Lee Ha Nui as Han Jung Won

This drama really taught me about life. You can never judge a person on how they handle themselves physically. He might be the worst person you taught you knew but deep inside there's a very good heart that became numb because of the things that happened to his life. He might be the happiest person you've ever seen but deep inside, you will see the true feeling that's been killing him in his entire life. It doesn't only speak about law firms and the law, but it also help us to be more considerate, understanding and vigilant at the same time. That's how we need to handle life. Cause without that, there begins conflicts and worst, death.

What to do with me life?

When I was a kid, I'm not that very ambitous. As what we always say 'I wanted to be------ someday'. The most important thing in my life then was to play and play. It changed when I went to highschool. All of it. I started to dream of getting a job with a higher salary. If not, be a professional nurse to find a cure or maybe a doctor. I've always dreamt of how my life would be for the next few years.

Now, here I am sitting in this very cozy chair and thinking of what to do in my life. The dreams I had are still unreachable. However, I did find a job with a good salary. Wondering again what will happen to me for the next 5 to 10 years. Would I still be here and lonely? Or would I be able to reach my dreams.

 One of it is to have a family, living on the spot where I really wanted the most. My dream house would be near the shoreline if not, above the shoreline. I wanted to see the wide ocean or sea and die with the sun set. I wanted to feel the warm breeze and feel all the love that God gave us. That's how I see my life.

It will only be dependent on how I do it today. Just wishing and wishing. Maybe one of the falling stars grant it.

Forgot about you.

Hey there. Sorry not been blogging for the past few days. I have been busy with work and specially hanging out with Dhee. We were almost drunk everyday. It was all worth it. Many things happened and really don't know why it did. Me and my exboyfriend went to a fiesta near our place. Dhee and him got into a fight but already good with it. I got a fever last wednesday but still managed to drink 2 cases of beer with some of my friends. I really don't know what's gotten into me these past few days. I think I might die because of an alcohol overdose. Does anybody know anything about that? Oh, well. That doesn't matter either, as long as I'm still alive, that's far more important.

After drinking, all I want to do is sleep and sleep and sleep. Too bad I need to go to work. No chance of complaining since no one told me to drink even if I have work the next day. I just love my life right now. No one's forcing me to do this and to do that. I always follow my feet wherever it leads me. I might not live for long but will never regret all the things that happened into my life. It may never be as meaningful as with others but for me it's worth dying for. LOL. Don't really know what I am saying. Just here for now. I have had many drafts to finish. :)

The beginning of what we called 'Real Life'

When I was still at my young and vulnerable age, I wondered what will happen after I finish schooling. What course would I take and every curious questions runs through my mind. When I was in college, I never took it seriously. I always thought that life is all about fun and happenings. I was average in terms of grades and never really did learn that much. 

After graduation, the reality of looking for a job strike me. I was sitting in the middle of the town and thinking what job should I get. As a nursing graduate, it is very difficult for us to find one. Many are jobless and most doesn't fit for the job. Then it killed every dream I had. I never thought that life would be this hard. Living on your own. 

Thinking of my capacity, I decided to work in a BPO company. It was early in the morning that I printed the resumes needed for the day's planned applications. I first applied in a small call center and unfortunately, wasn't able to get the job. The money left in my pocket was just 100 PHP. I haven't had my breakfast and my feet hurts. I ignored every pain I felt. I walked all day and still didn't get any recommendations. I almost surrendered the next day. I asked 2 of my friends to go with me. Luckily, I passed the initial interview and after long hours of waiting I still failed. I stopped looking for a job. Until one day, one of the companies called and told me that there is a new account. I grabbed the opportunity and I got my first job! I called my mom and told her about it. She was as happy as I am. 

After almost 2 years of working in this company, I realized how lucky and blessed I am to have a job.

Last night, one of my best friends invited me to a fiesta. I went there with a friend and I was shocked to see him like that. When we were still in college, he's a tall thin guy and full of dreams for his family. Now, he has a stable and a nice job that provides him more that what he needed. My best friend planned to go abroad. As I watched them closely, I realized that we were no longer immature all are different.

It seems like yesterday that I graduated. Everything else is different. The way I look into life and handle it. The people around me changed. Some improved and others not. The so called fear of the unknown has been opened and I'm still starting. Hoping I won't surrender on my way and will win this battle for good.

A night with Dhee

It's been a while since we met. Like a month ago. Many said that I like her more than just a friend. As I assess myself, it was never like that and will never be close to that. She's a very close friend to me. She always make me happy and that really matters especially these days. We never ran out of topics and laughing is our main course. She is a very caring and lovable person and I've always wanted to have a friend like that. As what I have blogged recently, I am longing for a younger sister and she definitely fits to the description of what I really want. 

Last night, I went to her place and we had a few to moderate drinks. We talked all night. There are times we ran out of words but always manage to get back in the line. She always makes me feel I'm important and she never fails to show that to me.

Whenever I am with her, I feel the presence of my younger sister. The warmth of a sisterly love. I just hope that this won't be just for a short period of time. Looking forward for the more exciting days with her.

Goodbye uncle

We met because of my ex-boyfriend. He was a very nice man. He even advised my ex bf to take care of me since my father is his old friend. Every time we visit their house, he's really very warm towards us. 

He was known as the powerful person in our place but not a politician. I can't tell you further but I know his principles in life and I respect it. The one thing that strike me was when I visited him at the funeral home. No one is there except for my 2 ex boyfriends. I asked them where are the other people or relatives. They told me no one wanted to stay awake until morning or what we called as 'Bilar'.

I felt sad and very disappointed. When he was alive he was the only person whom they turn to whenever they have problems bigger than they know. He was the person whom you can trust and ask for help. Now, he's dead only those people who didn't ask for help watched him. Why do people becomes selfish even through death? 

I volunteered and told my ex boyfriend that I'll be watching him over. I didn't sleep until 4 am. We played cards and everything else. At 4, my eyes no longer want to open then decided to sleep. I woke up at 5 then continued playing cards. It was already 12 in the afternoon that 2 of the relatives came over and gave us food. No one did said that they want to stay. We stayed there until 2pm.

As we went home, I just realized what if that happens to me. What if no one wanted to visit me in those 9 days. What would I feel? 

Wherever you are uncle, I love you and thank you for all the love you have given me even if it's only for a short period of time. You made me feel that I am very welcome to your family and you treated me as your own. Thank you so much and I will never forget all the wisdom and lessons you have taught me about life.