What a day!

September 8 is our fiesta in Digos... Since I studied and worked here on Davao, I haven't celebrated the event....

This year I wanted it to be the most memorable one. Two weeks before the celebration, I asked my supervisor for a rest day on that date and was so glad when he approved it.

I was too excited. September 8 came. I woke up early, ate my breakfast and went to work. I was too anxious to go home. Atlast! My shift ended at 4:40 pm. I then texted Dhee my friend. Unfortunately, she told me  she doesn't have spare money for the fare. My friend Chrisna also texted me that she is in Davao and wants to fetch me up and we'll go together in Digos. I then thought of Dhee. Too bad Dhee haven't prepared her things yet. We ended up riding on the bus. We were havin' fun while talking. It was raining that time. Then Chrisna texted me again and said they were stranded near digos because of flood. We were still in Darong that time, 1 hour drive away from Digos. After 45 minutes we arrived at badiang and got stranded for 30 minutes. It was very cold in the bus. Still raining. I then texted my mom and she called me. She was very worried because she can't contact me. We arrived in Digos at around 8:30 pm. Had a smoke with Dhee and went home.

I was surprised when I saw my aunt and my cousins at home. They planned to visit Digos to have fun but sad to say it was raining. We had plans with my highschool friends to have a reunion and eat at Penongs. I then went to Penongs with my mom. We ate and the 4 of them arrived. Mabeth, Sahara, Daphne and Haidee was there.  We were shocked when we saw big people about 6-7ft.  We didn't know that they were PBA players. Darn! GINEBRA PBA players. If only we were fond of watching basketball we would have got an autograph. We talked and took pictures. We started walking in the rain from penongs to the park. 

I had the time of my life. Didn't care about the rain. I just felt like walking and enjoying the moment with my old friends. Then my cousins texted and wanted to go with me. I told them that it was raining and I'm with my friends. They didn't care. While walking I told them to wait for me cause I need to fetch Daryl. They agreed. Daryl told me that all of our other cousins are on their way. I waited at the Highway and they came. Me, my cousins and old friends were together. Walked for 2 hours and still no vacant place to stay. My jacket was wet. 

At 12 am we were stunned and amazed because of the fireworks. It was so wonderful. It felt like I was 6 years old again. Arianne took pictures of it and it lasted for 20 minutes. The rain still didn't want us to enjoy the night. Still the people were walking, having fun and drinking. My friends decided to go home. Me and my cousins were very exhausted because we were walking for like 3 hours already. After an hour we stayed in OUTPOST. A small bar near the church in Digos. Tagalog na naman ha... nauubusan na kasi ako... lol... Ayun, nag inuman na kami. Bumili ng yosi atuminom ng uminom

Inimbita ko si PAST sa outpost... nagkatuwaan at naginuman parin. Nagtransfer kami sa Kalye uno kasi tinxt ako ng kakilala ko.Wala pala sya dun andun pala sa isang bar na yoko na sanang puntahan... Pero kasi lasing, pinuntahan namin. Nag withdraw pa kami ni Arriane. Pagdating namin, nakita ko nanaman siya.... hindi maalis -alis ang mata ko sa mukha nya.... I felt the song eventhough it was in the tune of rnb. I wanted to talk to him and hug him even wanted to kiss him. I realized that I did miss him that much. Tinawag ko yung ko kakilala ko na drummer at sinabi ko ang plano namin pa cebu this coming 18th. Tapos nun umuwi na mga cousins ko at ako din. 

I went home felt like hopeless and wanted to cry... Kasi I really don't want to see him. Para akong tanga noh...Inlove ako sa isang taong bago ko pa lang nakilala.. bakit ba kasi :(

The overall experience was average. I had fun but at the same time pissed off. 

Belated happy aniversary Digos...

Lastly, I heard this message from an old lady 'daw linte ning mga batan on bsta disco daghan kay tao. Wa man gahuna huna sa simbahan na birthday man ni Mama Mary. Tuara gi gab-an di na undangon ang ulan' hahaha... May tama ka lola.... :)

Hangover part 1

Hmm... I thought the movie was an action movie. Stupid me hindi ko inanalyze yung title. Well, ayun na nga napanood ko na.. 

Sa simula pa lang natawa na ako. Lalo na nung lumabas sa scene si Allen (the insane brother in law of Doug). Hindi talaga mawala ang tawa ko pag mukha na nya ang nasa screen. Habang pinapanood ko, para akong tanga tumatawa mag isa at parang may kausap ako na ibang tao. Sobrang hilarious at funny yung mga characters especially yung mga pinagdaanan nila. The most funny part was when they returned the TIGER to Tyson. Tawa ko lang ang naririnig dito sa office. I can't help it. My friend asked me what happened. Nevermind.

As I watched the movie I understood the real meaning of it. It was all about friendship and the things you can for a friend. Hindi naman din biro ang pinagdaanan nila diba? Although wala silang naalala, at sobrang tanga nila andun parin yung totoong pagkakaibigan. 

Hangover part 1 did put a smile on my face. Alam ko sobrang tagal na ng movie, pero ngayon ko lang naapreciate :P. Kaya eto excited na panoorin ang part two... 

Nga pala, wanted to share something. Na experience ko din na blackout ako after drinking. 

Ako at si Cy umuwi galing work. Then a friend of ours texted na andito daw siya sa Davao. Excited naman din kami kasi minsanan lang namin siya nakakasama. Actually, twice lang. Nasa boarding hauz na kami ni Cy and nagtxt na yung friend namin na nasa kanto na daw siya. Sinundo namin at nagtambay kami sa bhauz. Napag isip isip namin na mag inuman. Bumili kami ng Tanduay senior tsaka Ice tea na red. 

Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin namin sa inuming yon. Minix na ni Toper ang inumin. Binuhos ang isang senior na Tanduay sinilaban at nilagyan ng Iced tea na red. Eto namang engot na amazed. First time ko pa kasi nakita ang ganun. LOL. Ayun inum lang ako ng inum. Di ko namalayan na lasing na ako. We were on the what we so called Rooftop that night. Dinala namin yung foam sa rooftop then humiga kaming tatlo doon. Nakahiram kami ng gitara. Ayun na at kumanta na nga si Toper. The last song I heard from him was 'Back for Good'.

Sa pagkakaalam ko dun ako natulog sa rooftop. Then I woke up sa room ni Cy, naked. Darn! Don't ask me what happened. The first thing I asked was 'Anong oras na' then I panicked nang namalayan kong wala na akong saplot. Then I asked Cy kung what happened. I didn't remember a thing after the song... 

I promised na di ko na uulitin yun. shyet!! But one thing is for sure walang nangyaring malaswa. Sabi pa ni cy sumuka lang ako sa harap ng door ng bmate namin then sinira ko yung gripo sa CR. That was the reason why I got naked and basang basa yung buhok ko... 

I wanted to say sorry kay Toper kasi sa mga ginawa ko pati na din kay Cy. But nangyari na.. Napahiya nanaman ako... kainis.... yoko na tlaga uminom ng ganun... 

Lesson learned: Wag uminom sa rooftop. Nakakahilo...:P

Mistakenly mistaken....

Bakit kaya sa twing may kakaibiganin ako parating na mimisinterpret yung intention ko... Inuunahan na agad kahit wala pa akong ginagawa... hmmpf! ganun na ba talaga ka sama ang ugali ko na waariy hindi ko pa naipapakita umaalingasaw na?

Sa mga kaibigan ko lang ako kumukuha ng lakas ng loob. Noon man o hanggang ngayon, bago o mga dati pang kaibigan. Close man o hindi. Sila lang ang nagbibigay sa akin ng pag-asa. Kasi minsan pag nasa bahay lang ako mas lalo akong nalulunod sa problema. Feeling ko wala na akong kawala. Minsan dinadaan lang sa inuman at iyakan.. Pero mas dinadaan ko sa tawa...

Sa pagsusulat lang naman ako ganito. Naipapahayag ko lahat ng gusto kong sabihin sa mundo. Isa kasi akong duwag...

Ako yung tipong prangka na takot. Gusto ko yung taong sinasabi sa akin kung ano ang mali ko. Kasi minsan sa sobrang pagka sensitibo ko di ko namamalayan ang damdamin ng iba. 

Sana naman hindi ako husgahan sa mga pinapakita ko. Dyan ko kasi nalalaman kung sino ang tunay at nagmamalasakit sa akin ng totoo. Napatunayan ko narin yan....

Dito nalang.....

Why?

WHY- is a premise in support of an argument, for what reason or purpose. (Wikepedia)

That's the same question running though my mind everyday. Why does that person not like the other one? Why do we need to undergo these things? Why does the world revolve around the sun? Why do you care?
Why do people fall for a person that has somebody else? Same argumentative question but doesn't have the exact answer.

It's human nature to think that way. We people are unique from other living things. We think and understand how everything works. Creative as we say and very observant. We asks questions that are beyond our intelligence and questions that are not worth the answer.

Arguing one's understanding and perception is our own way of digging personalities. Like, why do we need to love? Many would say that it's nature and no one can live without love. Others don't need one. Different answers but same question.

Well, I think it's part of someone's life to ask questions. Not just why. Because if someone no longer ask,it means they have everything and life is already gone.

Sleepy mode....dreaming

Hay! Work nanaman... Too bad I slept last night around 2 am. Woke up at 5 am.. Kaya eto, habang nag chachat  sa mga customers parang lasing.. Pilit binubuka ang mga mata... Have to work kasi. But anyways, greet pala kita uli PAST ng happy birthday.

While I'm watching the screen of my station, feels like it wants me to sleep. Have to change the backlight.

Eto ang ayaw ko sa idle. Dami ko iniisip na tao at mga pangyayari sa buhay ko. Hay ewan.... Gaya ng isang taong hindi mawala wala sa isip ko. It's killing me everytime I think of him kasi sakit lang nararamdaman ko. Kaya lang gusto ko rin naman. Hirap pala talaga pag natamaan ka na. Tinitiis ko na nga lang na di ko siya makita. Sana lang ngayong Araw (Fiesta sa Digos) di ko sya makasalubong o mapakinggan... Naku! lasingan nanaman kasi ang labas neto. Wala na ang pinaghirapan na workout.

Ayan, ayaw na nyang umalis sa kokote ko. Well, andito na eto eh. Let me start.

Nakilala ko siya last 3rd week of May probably on the 18th. Me and my FF went to a bar in my hometown. We were having fun then this guy sang 'Higher' by Creed. It was the first time I heard his voice and it all meant everything to me. From then, I stared at him all night. Listened to every song. I asked my companion to ask for his name. Kaya lang nakaubos na kami nun ng 2 and half buckets and we can barely walk. In short, di namin nkuha ang name nya. I totally forgot that before we left that place I gave him a note, a very assuming and bad note. The next day we visited again. Good thing FF knew someone close to him. We then played billiards. Nainis lang ako sa friend nya kasi pinakilala nya ako sa guy. I then remebered what I did the the other night. Lahat na yata ng hiya nasa akin nung time na yun. But, oh well. Tapos na at nabasa na nya. Patay mali lang ako.

After ko nakuha ang name nya, I then checked it on Facebook. Sa sobrang pagka stunned ko sa kanya, di ko na ask yung apelyido nya. I entered his name and there was this profile na parehong pareho talaga yung mukha sa kanya. Ayun dali dali kong inadd at nag send ng message.Not knowing na hindi pala sya yun. 

Bumalik kami ni FF the week after kasi nga I really wanted to hear his voice again. At last! nalaman ko na real name niya and I realized na di pla sya ang sinendadn ko ng message sa fb. Another stupid realization. Oh, well. Na send ko na at napahiya na ako sa taong sinendan ko ng msg sa fb (may gf pa naman yun :().

Dun ko nakilala ang babeng singer nila. She was very jocund. You can never have a dull moment with her. To make the stoy short, na adik ako sa banda nila. An avid fan kung baga. Naging friends ko sila. Nakainuman. Nakapunta na din sila sa bahay nun. Sobrang saya.. Bagong kakilala..

I never expected that I admired him that much. My week is never complete when I can't hear his voice. Napaisip nga ako na bahala ng maglasing ako araw araw basta makita ko lang siya. Obsessed na yata ako. Kahinaan ko kasi sa lalaki ang magaling kumanta at mag gitara.

It seems that when you love a person who's life is about music, you would never run out of melody. Parang parating inspired.

Isa din sa nagustuhan ko sa kanya eh yung pagkaprangka, may paninindigan at masipag.. Sobrang na treasure ko yung time na nagkausap kami about his mates. Dun ko nakita na he's responsible.

Hindi na nga siya nwala sa isipan ko from the day we met. Na overwhelmed lang siguro ako. But one thing is for sure I do really like him and I've got nothing to do about it. Maybe someday or somwhere, he'll be with me. I will treasure every second if i'm given a chance.

Just in case you read this, I understand that you don't like me, that hurts but I don't have the right to question you. I just want to let you know that you gave me the reason to smile and have those butterflies again. That was a big help for me to know that I am still on the track and I can say that I still know what love and affection is. Because I thought I won't have that feeling anymore.

A happ birthday to the past....

Here I am alone in the night... Thinking and making this post... Just wanna say happy birthday... I am still glad that god gave you to me... Hope you'll have many more birthdays to come. Wishing you all the best in life and hope you'll meet your destiny soon... You can now leave me behind. I can now handle myself... 5 years of you spending my life with me looks like enough.. right?... take care and be healthy.... oH, sorry, it's still 11:25pm... I must say advance happy birthday:)

Wee na talaga? :(

Well, ano pa nga ba ang masasabi ko... Kundi ang tanga tanga ko talaga... Seems like yesterday I said I won't do the same mistakes but here I go again. Same track, lahat pareho. Ako parin nasasaktan... Bakit ba kasi ganito ako magmahal..

Dahil din siguro sa family background ko. Kasi nung bata pa ako, I never experienced someone caring for me. Like, lagay nalang natin na oo, they do care for me but because it's their obligation and not out of love. I grew up like an orphan. No one to talk to or even share anything about myself at home. The only difference is, I have what we call as 'FAMILY'. I bet you know what I mean.

Pag may problema ako, pumupunta talaga ako sa dalampasigan. I don't care how far it is from home. Sa twing titignan ko kasi ang dagat parang lahat ng problema ko nilulusaw ng tubig. Sobrang gaan ng pakiramdam ko pag nkakapunta dun. Lumaki ako ng walang gumabay at nagkalinga sa akin. Merong isa, kapatid ko but it is not the same love that I need from my parents.

I started having crushes when I was in Grade 5. Unfortunately, no one guided me. Evrytime I like someone, I'll do everything for that person. Kung pwede nga lang ako na ang manligaw gagawin ko (babaw diba?) But, I really didn't care. As long as makita ko lang yung taong gusto ko wala na ang problema ko.

Then it started. Ofcourse, as what we call 'One sided affection' I really didn't expect na meron palang ganyan. Kala ko kasi na pwede kang magmahal or magkagusto sa kahit na sino. Ayun na! nagsimula na akong ma insecure, kasi lahat ng nagugustuhan ko ginagawa akong tulay para sa babaeng gusto nila. Crap! Malaki lang katawan ko pero di naman cguro ako bagay maging tulay. :(

Hanggang college ganun parin papel ko. I expereinced having boyfriends but all didn't work out well. Seryoso daw pero ang pinakilala na bestfriend sa akin, girlfriend pala. Mahal na mahal daw ako pero parating humuhingi ng load! (Kapal!) Napagdaanan ko lahat yan ng walang magulang na gumagabay. Kasi sa tuwing mag oopen up palang ako eto na agad ang sasabihin 'Wag kang maglandi etc.' lahat ng mga masasakit na pwede mong marinig makukuha mo talaga. Buti nalang may naging kaibigan ako nung hs at college. Kasi kung wala hahaha baka andun na ako malapit sa Gmall (Mall dito sa Davao).

To sum it all up, eto parin ako nag iisa. Nasa isang relasyong walang katuturan at puro bolahan nalang. Pagod na pagod na nga ako eh. Pero cge parin.

One of my parents tried to comfort me when I cried. Sobrang badtrip lang kasi pinagalitan parin ako.. haist.. Ganda na sana ng simula wala parin pala. Kaya ngayon, kaw na magiging Best friend ko...

Baka dito ko rin ilagay suicidal note ko... hahaha jowk....

FLY FLY AWAY!

23 years of my life, I never experienced to travel through a plane... Sounds stupid ei? But yes, I admit it. It was and will always be my dream to do that before I die (But don't really want to die after it or while I'm doing it ). We are six siblings, one died, 4 of them experienced it. Sadly my steps and not me.

Our eldest, she went to Saudi to work. The next one went to Cebu and Manila just to have fun. Eldest brother went to Manila, Clark and Cebu to accompany his befriend who's a Navy. Lastly the youngest brother went to Manila because he was one of the listed _____ in our place... Even if they have their own reasons, It's still me who is left. I now have the time but no longer have the money.

July 3 was my lucky day. I checked Cebu Pacific's promos and luckily I got one. I thought of my mom and dad since they also haven't traveled through plane. Unfortunately, I disregarded my parents and decided to ask someone. He did not want to go. I already paid for the ticket. Good thing, someone accepted my offer.

It's been two months since I booked the flight and the excitement is still there. I can't imagine myself inside a plane lol. Truly ignorance is visible in this blog. But I don't care. Every night, I always dream that I'm already inside and I'm enjoying watching the view below. There are also times that the plane crashes and worst, I died in my dream because I don't want to lose the ticket via davao.. Stupid...

Just wanna share this to you.. Don't care what others think. I'm just happy that one of my dreams will come true this September 18... yay!... Here we go CEBU and BOHOL!!!!