Hay! Work nanaman... Too bad I slept last night around 2 am. Woke up at 5 am.. Kaya eto, habang nag chachat sa mga customers parang lasing.. Pilit binubuka ang mga mata... Have to work kasi. But anyways, greet pala kita uli PAST ng happy birthday.
While I'm watching the screen of my station, feels like it wants me to sleep. Have to change the backlight.
Eto ang ayaw ko sa idle. Dami ko iniisip na tao at mga pangyayari sa buhay ko. Hay ewan.... Gaya ng isang taong hindi mawala wala sa isip ko. It's killing me everytime I think of him kasi sakit lang nararamdaman ko. Kaya lang gusto ko rin naman. Hirap pala talaga pag natamaan ka na. Tinitiis ko na nga lang na di ko siya makita. Sana lang ngayong Araw (Fiesta sa Digos) di ko sya makasalubong o mapakinggan... Naku! lasingan nanaman kasi ang labas neto. Wala na ang pinaghirapan na workout.
Ayan, ayaw na nyang umalis sa kokote ko. Well, andito na eto eh. Let me start.
Nakilala ko siya last 3rd week of May probably on the 18th. Me and my FF went to a bar in my hometown. We were having fun then this guy sang 'Higher' by Creed. It was the first time I heard his voice and it all meant everything to me. From then, I stared at him all night. Listened to every song. I asked my companion to ask for his name. Kaya lang nakaubos na kami nun ng 2 and half buckets and we can barely walk. In short, di namin nkuha ang name nya. I totally forgot that before we left that place I gave him a note, a very assuming and bad note. The next day we visited again. Good thing FF knew someone close to him. We then played billiards. Nainis lang ako sa friend nya kasi pinakilala nya ako sa guy. I then remebered what I did the the other night. Lahat na yata ng hiya nasa akin nung time na yun. But, oh well. Tapos na at nabasa na nya. Patay mali lang ako.
After ko nakuha ang name nya, I then checked it on Facebook. Sa sobrang pagka stunned ko sa kanya, di ko na ask yung apelyido nya. I entered his name and there was this profile na parehong pareho talaga yung mukha sa kanya. Ayun dali dali kong inadd at nag send ng message.Not knowing na hindi pala sya yun.
Bumalik kami ni FF the week after kasi nga I really wanted to hear his voice again. At last! nalaman ko na real name niya and I realized na di pla sya ang sinendadn ko ng message sa fb. Another stupid realization. Oh, well. Na send ko na at napahiya na ako sa taong sinendan ko ng msg sa fb (may gf pa naman yun :().
Dun ko nakilala ang babeng singer nila. She was very jocund. You can never have a dull moment with her. To make the stoy short, na adik ako sa banda nila. An avid fan kung baga. Naging friends ko sila. Nakainuman. Nakapunta na din sila sa bahay nun. Sobrang saya.. Bagong kakilala..
I never expected that I admired him that much. My week is never complete when I can't hear his voice. Napaisip nga ako na bahala ng maglasing ako araw araw basta makita ko lang siya. Obsessed na yata ako. Kahinaan ko kasi sa lalaki ang magaling kumanta at mag gitara.
It seems that when you love a person who's life is about music, you would never run out of melody. Parang parating inspired.
Isa din sa nagustuhan ko sa kanya eh yung pagkaprangka, may paninindigan at masipag.. Sobrang na treasure ko yung time na nagkausap kami about his mates. Dun ko nakita na he's responsible.
Hindi na nga siya nwala sa isipan ko from the day we met. Na overwhelmed lang siguro ako. But one thing is for sure I do really like him and I've got nothing to do about it. Maybe someday or somwhere, he'll be with me. I will treasure every second if i'm given a chance.
Just in case you read this, I understand that you don't like me, that hurts but I don't have the right to question you. I just want to let you know that you gave me the reason to smile and have those butterflies again. That was a big help for me to know that I am still on the track and I can say that I still know what love and affection is. Because I thought I won't have that feeling anymore.
