ME and Meih

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Digos, Philippines
I am 23 years old and a nursing graduate. Still trying to get my license. Currently working as a call center agent. I am a very sensitive person. Just for my self and not for others. When I love, I love. I do everything for it.

Saturday, September 03, 2011

FLY FLY AWAY!


23 years of my life, I never experienced to travel through a plane... Sounds stupid ei? But yes, I admit it. It was and will always be my dream to do that before I die (But don't really want to die after it or while I'm doing it ). We are six siblings, one died, 4 of them experienced it. Sadly my steps and not me.

Our eldest, she went to Saudi to work. The next one went to Cebu and Manila just to have fun. Eldest brother went to Manila, Clark and Cebu to accompany his befriend who's a Navy. Lastly the youngest brother went to Manila because he was one of the listed _____ in our place... Even if they have their own reasons, It's still me who is left. I now have the time but no longer have the money.

July 3 was my lucky day. I checked Cebu Pacific's promos and luckily I got one. I thought of my mom and dad since they also haven't traveled through plane. Unfortunately, I disregarded my parents and decided to ask someone. He did not want to go. I already paid for the ticket. Good thing, someone accepted my offer.

It's been two months since I booked the flight and the excitement is still there. I can't imagine myself inside a plane lol. Truly ignorance is visible in this blog. But I don't care. Every night, I always dream that I'm already inside and I'm enjoying watching the view below. There are also times that the plane crashes and worst, I died in my dream because I don't want to lose the ticket via davao.. Stupid...

Just wanna share this to you.. Don't care what others think. I'm just happy that one of my dreams will come true this September 18... yay!... Here we go CEBU and BOHOL!!!!


Friday, September 02, 2011

standing still....

Everytime I'm in a relationship I always set my mind not to give it all. At first it does. But when time passes by, all that matters to me is that person. I am really full of crap :(. It's always me who ends up crying. For the past 5 years, I've been with this person and been through many things.

Unfortunately, it's all the same... I tried to forget him... Bad thing=== we're still together, pretending everything's fine and nothing to worry about. We're still together eventhough he already comitted to another person. I'm really sick of it. Sick and tired and just want to get out and shout!!!! I never experienced true love and be loved..

Lately, I met this guy. Talented, strict, dedicated and passionate... He was the reason why i felt the same butterflies when I was young. I followed him everywhere and listen to every song, saved his text messages, saved his videos and pictures... Sounds like an obsessed stalker, right? But no, It's just that whenever I see him, the feeling of emptiness is no longer inside. Twas' like freedom and childish excitement. Always looking forward and never wanted it to end. Then here it goes, another failure, expectation burned and realization..

They always say it's not me, it's the situation, the people arround us, the time and every damn reason they can think of. . . Why is it so hard to tell the truth if in the first place all the alibis still hurt? Atleast respect the person and just tell what's inside and not just full of shit that doesn't even make sense...
Now I'm standing still. Waiting and waiting more for nothing...:(